Behind The Mirror
I want what they have! A confession of jealousy

I want what they have! A confession of jealousy

October 17, 2019

Every single person deals with jealousy on some level. But, it's one of those hush-hush topics that no one talks about. Whether it's jealousy over someone's relationship, career, good opportunity, house or lot in life, just know that these thoughts are soooo common. In this episode, I unravel the patterns of jealousy and how it's merely just an obstacle in the way of finding our true path. Sharing from my own journey, I offer tips on how to change your inner dialogue and accept the beautiful journey that is only YOURS. 

Anna's Blog: www.annadimmel.com

Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/annadimmel

Shop Wellness: https://www.myyl.com/anna-dimmel

 

How to survive toxic relationships (and finally have peace)

How to survive toxic relationships (and finally have peace)

October 9, 2019

For years, I believed it was my job to fix the toxic relationships in my life. I believed by doing everything "right", eventually good would win out and all would be well. But my fear of being disliked, rejected and misunderstood blinded my ability to see just how toxic some of these relationships were. I became a slave to these relationships and they began to completely run my life. In this episode, I talk candidly about my 15 year journey of navigating toxic relationships and discovering that fixing them wasn't the answer - accepting the reality of what these relationships truly were held my ticket to freedom (and peace). 

Anna's blog: www.annadimmel.com

Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/annadimmel

Wellness: https://annadimmel.com/wellness/

Feel a shift happening? You’re right on time

Feel a shift happening? You’re right on time

September 27, 2019

This week marks the Autumn equinox which often brings a significant amount of change. As many of us are leaving a season of loss, heartache, grief and wilderness wandering, this shift offers an invitation to step into the next chapter. This season, in particular, is all about harvest, abundance and the preparation for new things. A season of celebration that we made it this far - and the reassurance that everything will be okay. 

Anna's blog: www.annadimmel.com

Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/annadimmel

Wellness: https://annadimmel.com/wellness/

When life gets lonely - finding hope in the wilderness

When life gets lonely - finding hope in the wilderness

September 17, 2019

The path to authenticity can often feel lonely. When we leave the status quo to run after something real, an empty space is created. Whether it's a deconstruction of faith, community, marriage or friendship, the voids left behind can be a lonely place. In this episode I talk about my personal journey: from having viral blogs, speaking engagements, a thriving career, and a full social calendar, to losing the majority of my following and my personal and social world going to crickets. In my journey of following Spirit into the wild, I found myself in a vast, lonely wilderness. The good news is that when you land in this place, you are exactly where you need to be. 

Anna's blog: www.justajesusfollower.com

Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/annadimmel

Spiritual Living: https://justajesusfollower.com/spiritual-living/

The culture we come from - how it affects us and those around us

The culture we come from - how it affects us and those around us

September 5, 2019

One thing I'm beginning to learn is how much we see the world through our own cultural lens. And when I say culture, I don't mean our demographics - I mean what our background is, what we have been taught to believe about the world and those around us. How we view the world has everything to do with our own personal culture. In this episode, I explore the idea of how much this affects everything from how we view ourselves to our ability to connect with others. 

Anna's blog: www.justajesusfollower.com

Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/annadimmel

Embracing the FEELS - rage, power, sadness, tenderness - ALL of them have a purpose

Embracing the FEELS - rage, power, sadness, tenderness - ALL of them have a purpose

August 19, 2019

We all have tender, soft parts of us. We equally have strong, powerful parts of us. For a long time, these dynamics were out of balance for me. Not because I didn't have them, but because I thought I needed permission to access them. Which left me in this kind of numb space.

When you feel like all you can be is gentle, you end up full of rage - because the power has no where to go. And when you feel like all you have to be is strong, you end up with loads of anxiety. Because the tenderness has no where it feels safe. These power dynamics inside of us are constant. Learning to lean into what our body needs to express and what our heart needs to feel, is so vital.

Every part matters and every part is needed. In this episode, I share from my own journey of "stuffing" my emotions (for YEARS) in trying to be good. I talk about how this affected my parenting, being a spouse and the daily panic attacks I endured. I also open up about the year when I finally brought them all to the surface.

 

Anna's blog: www.justajesusfollower.com

Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/annadimmel

Talking about body - self-acceptance, sexuality and being present in your skin

Talking about body - self-acceptance, sexuality and being present in your skin

August 9, 2019

We are made of three equal parts: mind, body and spirit. But, for many of us, mind and spirit are seen as the focus while our bodies are the afterthought. The body is often viewed as the flesh; the part that needs to be contained, managed and taught to submit. In this episode, I explore the idea of body being equally as valuable (and good) as spirit and mind. I share my experiences from purity culture and the lengths I went to in denying myself. I talk about how abuse and trauma played a part in my disconnection with body and how I separated from my body altogether. Disconnection with our bodies can lead to many addictive behaviors, self-harm, depression, anxiety, eating disorders, etc. This episode is an honest look at my journey of learning self-acceptance, self-forgiveness, being present and how I am climbing back into my skin again - embracing every part of body as GOOD. 

Anna's blog: www.justajesusfollower.com

Suggested guided meditation: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5TvIdqigPk4&list=PLb09q0R7gAwQ3ou1lUWZcJZEtgNeoJNJf&index=3&t=0s

Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/annadimmel

 

Every choice has value - letting go of regret

Every choice has value - letting go of regret

July 17, 2019

Living with regret is something many of us struggle with. From our career, parenting, love life, marriage and relationships, the desire to do everything "right" is a high standard to achieve. But, because of the pressure to be "perfect", we can we get entangled in the fear of making mistakes, so we get stuck...unable to move forward. Or we feel such pain over the mistakes we've made that we lose the ability to trust ourselves. Learning to see mistakes as part of the way we are designed to live, shifts the perspective. Trusting that we were made to make mistakes and grow from them, is trusting the Divine. Every decision has value - good, holy value. Living from this place opens us up to take risks, try new things and live a life free from shame.

Anna's blog: www.justajesusfollower.com

Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/annadimmel

Religious Trauma Syndrome - with Dr. Marlene Winell

Religious Trauma Syndrome - with Dr. Marlene Winell

July 7, 2019

Dr. Winell is a human development consultant, educator, and writer in the San Francisco Bay Area. Her background includes 28 years of experience in human services, in both community and academic settings. She holds a doctorate in Human Development and Family Studies from Pennsylvania State University and is the author of Leaving the Fold: A Guide for Former Fundamentalists and Others Leaving their Religion. We discuss the symptoms of RTS, the cycle of abuse that occurs in many churches and how the trauma of betrayal from former friends of loved ones in your faith community can leave damaging effects. 

If you enjoy our conversation and would like to talk with Dr. Winell personally, look for the free 20 min session link on her website and mention the podcast when contacting her. 

Dr. Marlene Winell: https://journeyfree.org/

Anna's Blog: www.justajesusfollower.com

 

Pain does not have to define you

Pain does not have to define you

June 27, 2019

Before I sat down to record this episode, I asked myself: if I could only say one thing what would it be? My answer to that question was immediate: you don't have to be defined by pain. THIS is the core of my message. This one sentence is everything. Because every single one of us has experienced pain. But, how we handle pain depends greatly on our personalities; it also determines the kind of life we will live moving forward. In this episode, I share from my own struggle with pain and offer hope to rise on the other side softer and stronger. 

Anna's blog: www.justajesusfollower.com

Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/annadimmel